When will it end?

so think i have hit an alltime low point in my life, i can handle the losses of a night at luton and shake them off knowing i had a good time but atm im just getting sucked into a spiral of depression that feels almost imposible to get out of!

its not anything major that has set me like this its just tends to be little things that slowly put me down and atm its just one thing after another when will it end??

but on a better note i start lectures in the morning and im looking forward to seeing all the old faces a bit more. i feel like i need something to concentrate on so that i dont keep going over these small things in my head and making more of a deal out of them than they are.

played poker last night for the 1st time in about a week just had a small deposit online to play my mate HU it went good with me catching nice cards and getting him down to his last $4 untill he sucked out on me with Q3 v my QJ but i got him 3 hands later hitting a 4 outer on the river all in pre flop with 96 (tilt call). i then spun my £10 deposit up2 £50 going all in blind every hand untill eventualy i got cought out on a $180 pot i should have sucked out and won rele!! it was prob because i looked at my cards before going all in should never do that when ur making a silly run at 1k from £10 LOL.

so my 1st day of year 3 tomorrow got a 9am start and dont finish untill 3!! i know all u workers out there will say only a 6 hour day but for me this is alot in one day! atleast i have wed and fri totaly off. lets hope things pick up going to wake up with a fresh attitude and try not to get worked up over small things.

peace out!